EMOTIONAL IMPRISONMENT: BREAKING FREE
Accepting I’ve been my Own Jailer for Way Too Long!
Emotional incarceration involves creating a self-psychological jail that we trap ourselves in through our negative emotions.
Negative psychological leaning toward our lives is easy because we’ve lived through so many disappointments and let-downs that we’re familiar with what to expect.
Emotional entrapment is subtle and builds up slowly with time, guided by the little things we fail to face and address.
Our emotions are powerful enough to free us from our circumstances or trap us in endless self-demeaning cycles.
Having lived through the same unyielding cycles for quite a while now: all these repetitive cycles have turned my life into a maze Halloween game.
Breaking free from self-imprisonment isn’t easy; who wants to admit to self-imprisonment? I know I didn’t want to!
Vulnerability is often mistaken for weakness. This belief has most people psychologically imprisoning themselves to avoid seeming weak.
To accept that I was my jailer, I first had to admit that I had given people and societal norms too much power to dictate my life by caring about what they think. This being the toughest pill I’ve had to swallow, it’s overall the best decision I’ve made so far!
I’m breaking free! I tried and lived the negative way: constantly worrying and panicking over everything, but now, it’s time to try the OPTIMISTIC way of living and let go!
I’m choosing to be vulnerable, kind to myself, patient with who I’m becoming, dropping my armor, letting go of all the shame and perfectionism, being more grateful, being enough for myself, and being my cheerleader.
I have learned that my need to be perfect and the smartest in the room was a way of people pleasing to avoid and reduce criticism and bullying and conform to societal norms.
I choose to live a life guided by love; True Love comes from being vulnerable, flawed, authentic, and enough. Ultimately, I am the only ME this world will ever see: my POWER!
A Love Letter To who I Was
Dear Me,
Although you’re no longer serving me, you’ve gotten me to this point in my life, where I know what I deserve, who I am, and whose I am. Thank you for shielding me from the worst-case scenarios, but it’s time I usher in a new me as this journey we’ve taken, is a different one! I ain’t mad, angry, or regretful that you existed, but I now know I can do better, live better, and engage with the world better. Letting you go is the hardest decision I’ve had to make in my entire life, but I promise it’s for the best.
I love you for keeping it real and fighting the battles with so much resilience and power the best way you knew how. I respect you deeply for that! I’m going to get us everything we’ve set up to attain and in the best self-loving way possible. Your strength and zeal is going to make this journey more educative, fun, and possible and so I have nothing but love for you. This goodbye is scary and bitter-sweet but, isn’t that the recipe for everything great?
Whatever I’m after right now requires a different me, but, that doesn’t mean what you’ve done is in any way meaningless. on the contrary, it’s been the much-needed preparation for this step we’ve taken. Thank you for showing me that there is two sides to everything and neither can exist without the other. Thank you for being my bestfriend and defending my honor in every step of the way. You are my HERO! Now, tomorrow, and always, and I’m going to live knowing I’m here because you WERE! Thank you once more! I LOVE YOU!!!
